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我与他的过去 ~黄德华(刘德华）

2011-11-26T10:10:00.000-08:00

08.08.2009-21.02.2011 咱们的爱情就从那一天开始，是从你彼此在qq认识那一刻。一开头我就当我和你之间是网友。哪知道你突然开webcam给我看。就从那一刻我感觉你好普通。并没可以和你联系。哪知道你一直找我。而且还对我说要见我。当然我也答应了你。要你你下来吧。而你当然也没欺骗我也来到从新加坡坐巴士下来吧生。那天既然是08.08.2009的凌晨3点种、我为了接你。怕自己睡觉刻意找朋友喝茶不睡觉的等你来临。那晚我带着一个平凡的心见你。那晚载你那一刻。我穿到很随便而戴着一副眼镜。我朋友还对我说。你好帅我当然还记得那天你穿一件红色的衬衫。蓝色的牛仔裤背着一个书包来找我。当天我和你抱住一起在我朋友的家过夜。当晚我们还接吻了。你还告诉我那是你的唇吻。我当然不会忘记那晚的甜蜜。接下来早上第二天我们就打算去云顶度过。好可惜当我们到了云顶既然没房间，要和太贵了。所以我们就直接从云顶下去KL然后坐火车回吧生

好怀恋你吧生一直把我抱住而且我们还在云顶拍了我们两人的第一个照片。这可让我美好的回忆。当然这个照片我还保持着。之后我们就回去租了一个酒店空度咱们的春天，可是美好不过我们很单纯的抱住睡觉什么也没做。之后到了不久你回去了。你还慢慢把你的生活告诉我。你告诉我你妈妈嫁给第二个了。而且你老不对我说你爸爸。我也不过问。知道他告诉我他的一切。有一天他告诉我他和他妹妹在聊msn。我就问他我可以认识他吗。你有告诉你妹妹我就是你女朋友啊。他直接说我告诉我妹妹我们只不过是（朋友）这句让我听了心真的好痛好痛。不过没关系我还坚持和他走一起、直到有一天我忍不住了。而且是2009的中秋节我为了他的不承认跑去JB找他。谈个清楚。结果就那一晚咱们发生了第一次的关系。我当然还记得他没送我到巴士站就自己跑进去新加坡就因为朋友。那一刻我就懂了原来他朋友比我重要还记得那天是10月份。不过没关系我还是忍住的度过。直到我忍不住的那一天。我和他闹了第一次的（分手）是因为他一直不愿意在FB公开咱们的爱情，我还记得他对我说你可以不可以去签减肥，其实当我看见他那样说我心里其实很难过为什么难得我不瘦你就不承认我是你女朋友吗。我就不管三七二十一就去了一间叫SLIM SANTUARY 签了RM4000块的配套。让后我就发给简讯给他说我签了配套。真的那一刻开始他才开始理会我才对我说12月他朋友生日他会回去他家乡。所以他对我说。12月4号你坐巴士去到IPOH然后做TEKXI去batu gajah那可是我第一次那样见人家的家长而不是他带我回去。一开始我觉得好好笑。可是因为我太爱他、我就一个人坐巴士到IPOH然后坐teksi去batu gajah的TM打给他妈妈说我到了。那一天差不多4点种我就到了batu gajah我就好像一个木材坐在椅子等他回来。他妈妈就自己出去吃饭丢我和弟弟在家里。然后直到晚上8点那样他妈妈回来对我说我该睡哪一间房间。我就上去。他姐姐的女儿就过来陪我睡觉。我当天和着急一直打给他。就不过他电话关机了。我当然非常担心的他会发生什么事情、他一直没开电话。直到他妈妈进来我房间问我要不要陪他一起接tuckwah我就一口答应了他妈妈。那天我还记得很清楚。他从巴士上他妈妈车子。就一直和他妈妈说话而且不完全理会我。直到家那一刻他也是不理我。直到他从厕所出来他才叫我陪他上去睡觉、、、真是叫人伤心这种的男朋友。不过没事因为我可以忍。就因为（爱）

。到了第二天晚上他带我去他朋友的结婚前夕。我还记得他妈妈问我你没陪他喝喜酒我很自然回他妈妈。。他没叫我去。所以我回去啦。到了第二天我就独自一个坐巴士会吧生。当天他给我一份生日礼物就是（香水）IDOLE D'ARMANI 。这是他第一份给我生日礼物随便当天他没陪我度过生日不过我已经很满足了。过不久我就和他说（姐姐、老板娘，我妈妈和我）会去新加坡过圣诞节。这是我第一次去新加坡。在我印象深刻，我们是晚上10点巴士，然后我当天会给他知道我的巴士几点开。就是因为我知道他第二天有上班所以就没一直短信他。让他好好休息。当天的11月24号凌晨3点接近4点种我抵达了新加坡。当天我很深刻的我一个认识5年的网友来见我。因为我们对新加坡不熟悉他愿意伸出援手来golden mai那边找我然后带我们去酒店，因为我姐姐们都很累很累不懂哪里有时钟酒店可以休息。那个男人叫francis。其实我很感激他那么的帮我。。其实我一点也不在乎当天帮我是谁，哪里知道。第二天他跑了告诉我他昨晚去了clubbing到凌晨5点。真让了心酸原来他一点也不在乎我这个女朋友。跑去认识一个美眉。而且他还show我他的facebook。是不是想让我知道她有多可爱有多瘦呢？其实这一切我都算了。一切吞进心里。我就默默的回去吧生我还记得他既然没叫我多陪他多一晚。好证明的他原来不是很爱我、当我回去那一刻我还很记得对他说。你伤了我好深其实你知道吗。既然你那么不爱我。你倒不如帮我放掉。其实那一刻时我们第二次分手。直到有一天我跑去问他。你要挽留我们这段感情吗。如果你要就给我1200我要还人家飞机票。我当时就很生气之下跑去答应去别人的家乡度过春节。在我预想不到原来他原来把这一笔寄给我。然后退还给人家。当时我真的很感动原来他已经慢慢的好爱我。直到2010的2月。这一年好特别就是华人新年而且是初一加情人节。德华既然选择当天去了kajang然后就在我家陪我度过春节。我第一次跑去kajang接他然后带他去sunwaypyramid，。这一年对我来说也是我最美最瘦的一年。因为只从我签了配套我每日每夜的运动加完全没吃米饭也当然不吃我最爱的nasilemak就那样度过了。我终于从68变了58公斤。短短的几个月我就瘦了。就因为他德华。坦白说我从来没为过一个男人减肥过。所以他是我生命中就深刻的一个。当天我还记得他既然买了一个玫瑰花送给我。让我觉得好甜蜜。当然少不了我表姐们。还有我那天我载住fion我的小心肝。JB的一个朋友。当天我自信满满陪他们逛街。当然第二天（初二）我把他带我我婆婆的家里介绍给我的亲人。。他可是我生命中第一个介绍给亲人的男人。很多人说他好帅。就可恶的没说我美╮(╯_╰)╭。然后当天晚上吃完家庭晚餐在餐厅我们就赶晚车去他家里度过春节。我还很深刻那年我一直穿我美丽的衣服去他朋友的家里而且我每天都化妆。他也好喜欢我化妆因为他是完美主义者。我还很深刻的陪他去酒吧穿了一个白色外套和一件蓝色的衣服和黑裤子。去clubbing。那天我觉得自己好美也许是瘦吧。我还记得他朋友可是样貌不美就批评了。那天我还有点开心的是因为他有一直陪住我身边。不过就让我吃醋就是他抱着我和那个女人拍照。他以为我不吃醋其实心里还挺吃醋的。因为我男人抱着其他女人拍。

我和他的回忆 andy & macy

2011-04-21T06:37:00.001-07:00

爱的定义

2009-09-27T13:06:00.001-07:00

相信每个人希望遇到自己爱和适合自己的伴侣，只不过事情，不会事事都是那么完美。也许生命中会遇到，他爱你多过你爱他多，或者你爱他多过他爱你？其实很多人在追求自己生命中最爱，只不过就是不懂得真爱到底是怎么样？怎样才算真爱？真正的爱，是不会计较他付出的爱比你多或少的！真正的爱是为对方付出而且不会渴望回报，那种的爱才是最真实的。现在的年代的人，好像认为爱情是儿戏那样看待，不爱就离婚或者分手？那样的想法太幼稚了，不晓得你会不会那样认为呢？有些人当和一个相处一些年就感觉闷，没爱的感觉。就追求那种刚开始的谈恋爱的感觉。其实他或她根本不知道回想，为什么会对一段久的感觉感到闷或淡，其实人与人相处久了。刚开头是爱情久了，就是感情。其实感情比爱情来的真实。只不过他们不知道真正的爱是哪里？对我而言。能认识某些人是种缘分。其实很不简单让一段感情，从相遇，到认识，然后到相处在一起建立一段爱情。是多么的不简单。脾气，性格

其实都是人为的。只要彼此认为。区区改掉一些缺点就可以白头偕老，何乐不为呢？其实人就是那种感觉累才放弃一段感情，其实真正的爱。是不会计较对方的缺点，而愿意陪她度过一生。现在真实的爱，好难遇到。其实遇到就好好珍惜，不要放手。谁不渴望真实的爱呢？只不过没那么容易遇到。记得人生有几个真正对你付出的人呢，当你遇到就好好捉住不放。当时你就会感觉到一丝丝的幸福。也许生命中你会跌倒几次，可是不要气馁，生命中一定会遇到自己的真爱。爱——》感情》。。。记得一时的新鲜感比不到一段来的真实的感情。不要为了追求新鲜感而放弃身边以这一来陪你度过的伴侣。因为新鲜感也只不过一闪拿。谁也渴望一段来的真实的爱情。朋友们记得爱。可遇不可求。珍惜眼前人

CHRIS LCW......LOVE WHICH HARD FORGET

2009-05-31T22:33:00.000-07:00

actually i try put down hate on him..on a month been pass..whose know..what of family pressure ..business partner interupt all was BULLSHIT totally...i get info from his fren,..he told me .he hv new target gal to go after.....really cant believe...what he acting infront of me all d while....wat i am his 2nd gf ...i really cant believe tat...he really a sux guy i been met...No true on Love,..he juz wan find a gal can cure hiS BORING& SEX LIFE ...this is him.......he can said alot of sweet word ..he can do make d gal fully trust him..he love her.....can also bring d gal back c his parents....another make me more faint...d hamster bought from him..become parents..on yesterday 30/05 (mc & cm) ....i really hate him......hate why he din resposible wat he did...he really NOT a guy...24 year old still so sux,..b4 know him...he told..u trust me..i hv website for lelong....alot of ppl trust me oso..ask me view d website..HAHAHAHA...all his tactic to cheat a gal.......GTO......I HATE U CHRIS LCW- U R BIG LIAR

190509 -break off been past 1 mths

2009-05-18T09:47:00.000-07:00

story fly & lipas been pass 1 month..dont know why my heart still unable fully recover..really pain and hard to breath.i nvr try such pain before..perhaps i really treat him .his my partner for rest of life...even really cant acceptable for this reality but i should accept it.....my tear till this moment havent finish ..even i knew i shud wake up & stand see for future...within this 1 mth...wat i been doing.....first 2 week , i beem starve myself..without taking and food..my fren & parent been force me to taking meal...till wat i been take also vomit back...my matter been seriously..i slowly recover back my stomach..i everyday find ppl out with me till mid9 only...really very suffer for first 2week....everyday also dream him ..even though my body so tired but i really wish to have a good sleep & good rest,...i really wish to have good sleep.....i really like panda now...i hope i sleep and dont wake up.....i been tru so many relationship before...never so suffer before..and normally i take few day can recover back....and tis time..really hard for me to stand...i really love him...but i shud let him go..and put down everything..why?? macy cant b tough and stand up.....even i knew no value keep on love him....i really wish i can have good rest ...Please let me have good sleep...i really dont wan keep on everyday out till mid9...i really hope i can sleep early but i cant ! cant! cant!...i cant let myself have extra time for thinking about him....i'm so suffer ..really suffer...within the time ...nobody was beside me....i really need a real fren can beside me...but ..nobody beside me...i really scare love ....i knw recently have guy come after me..but i really no daring to accept any relationship......love really can make a people lost the soul....i hate love.....

why this love so suffer??NET LOVE was

2009-04-20T00:42:00.000-07:00

222 = 22/02/09..we stand relationship on 222..this was sweet memory between me and him
his name chris & me macy...how our relationship start on february .suddenly he came msn me..infact he on my list msn quite long long around 2year+ but dint chat on the chat room..suddenly he chat with me ..and want mine number..i feel he so annoying and just give me..starting i am entertain him..not really want know him more...but more i chat wit me i feel him quite ok..quite no bad...on start 1 week we only chat on msn & webcam every night even stop webcam we chat on call,...chat till late late..i did been beg on him via webcam..pls dont come HURT me if u really wan hurt me..coz i really cant afford to been HURT once again..this pain really hard to recover...on first day we plan meet on piramid..actually he want seat KTM then come KLANG coz he dunno d road to come over Klang..but he was give me surprise he found the road and reach my home..2nd surprise he give me was at KIM GARY restaurant..he told me..u did ask me..if u really dont like me.just tell me..i will let u GO...but he at KIM GARY..he told me..i WONT LET U GO..that time i heard i was so GANDONG...and eye bit water..and we go took picture on those thicker...and on d pic he did wrote XOXE Mr B & mei...XOXE mean = LOVE....our relationship been so good and become very good..within me & him he call me baobei & FLY and me call him lipas & deardear.this is our address....even he sick i can after knock off buy medicine , vitamin.porridge..sakit kerongkong to him send to his shop....we did have alot memory...we went penang 8/03/09 and melaka on 15/03/09...those memory at ZOO ...and he bought mc & cm for me,..i am so happy coz he bought hamster for me...04/04 i follow him back ayer tawar his home town..actually i back him hometown i dint do anything,..i c ppl..i did call & din said bad word .....and said my behaviour really not really gud,.but those bcoz i really care him..everyday his msg & call..coz after i know him,...my life ALL IS HIM...i can reject all guy even invitation from other guy...even msn password also can put under our date of memory let himknow starting 222xxxxx. i can throw away so many thing all coz him...but he can only based on msg..said me metaralitic ..coz tis i can dump cheras bf..he did really know whole story..and judge me like tis...actually i knew him...open handphone shop with kenny..i can know..kenny use him...coz he both is partner why kenny said on leave go where go where travel he can..do tat..but chris hv no rite..to said tat..i knew on starting kenny know me.he told me..chris can bcoz a girl very rush and drive motor fast fast back and faster c a girl..infact i know as well..i did told chris late nvm as long really hv gud reason....i msg chris and request face to face to meet up ..and chris reject me...19/04/09 @1100am ...he said SRY MEI END..this is his answer..he nvr give us chance meet up& he direct judge me die....and really dunno wat shud i do..and i whole day din TAKE ANY FOOD & WATER...i drive to USJ planning wish to wait him till he come out c me..even till morning..i rather..wait..coz i need face to face answer..without tat ..i wont satisfield..and really put down all the things...while i reach USJ around 8pm.....i msg him.." i waiting u at kenny house outside,,no c u i wont left" and wait for few minute he reply..ok 1030pm...and me waiting...till 1030...he back home...the thing i cant understanding,....why 2 person thing muz involve another party????why he cant 2 by 2..actually a girl give u suggestion ask both of us..learn thing is gud..coz i really k about if 1 day chris sick & very heavy how..how can take k of his shop..i knew kenny is techinician..i didnt ask kenny daily do dat..and juz to learn it..incase anything like sick...like emergency..chris hv thing to settle..at least he no a shop...kenny can assits about this...and he bring along..and kenny said want make he & chris relationship bcome worst..actually i knw kenny also selfish d. he dun wan learn more things..he only wan easy ...actually i dunno why kenny go n noisy wit chris family there..said me alot ...me make chris how & how...actually..i really dun understand he can based on kenny & his family within 1 day can change everything,,....we dint argue or anything onli a msg,,,actually pain till dunno how to said..he no different wit PENANG who HURT me on JULY08year......kenny said 1 thing more..bcoz of u..he halau customer..wah...tis also blame ..me actually i dunnno tat day he said those word..coz me din really heard wat he talk wit customer..he somemore said i no respect KENNY...actually i went his shop i dint said any word..he can based on 1 thing happen on beggining we start alrdy judge me...i told chris..i knw u drive fast2..so i drive over uSJ..and wait u knock off..i dint force u..fongong & dint said any word..now u everthing blame me...once more....i realy duno wat talk wit kenny wife..actually onli twice i c kenny wife ..and tis was so long time...i at pppl house,,,i sure won talk any bad word..of coz i knew wat is respect..WHY HE EVERYTHING ALSO HEARD 1 SIDE dint ask me????? why he dunno how to think & judge a thing..perhaps..he think bcoz a petrol story. and alot of things .make him everything KENNY was rite..i really dun understand....why our matter he muz bring along KENNY...i wan ask him..who is over life wit u...KENNY or ME????? actually did kenny tell about chris about his wife matter,,,r chris involve on kenny love matter ???NO rite..why kenny coz want chris take k his shop and said thing make us BREAK..actually if chris break with me....so gud ..coz chris all d time spend on shop & lelong...i believe chris will be understand 1 day wat i try msg on dat...now perhaps dunno...future i confirm he will.....but i believe dat time...everything b late...i cant do anything...coz really not d power can do.....chris..i did all coz u gud..u dunno...and think me those bad girl..............................................i love u till i lost control mine self...u said me like tat....i really dunn wat shud said anymore....tat is your choice...i will wish u..as u wish....LET U Go even really dun wan......lipas i really love u...why u think me like dat...????why????a girl won coz u gud,,won give such suggestion...END

memory 222,282 ,mc & cm ..lipas & fly..baobei & deardear

2009-04-20T00:36:00.000-07:00

Bad Love Net Love Only May-July2008

2008-12-28T14:18:00.000-08:00

(May 14 2008)i knew a guy who name Benny Ong from sdo(china) he's from Penang but work at Johor ..infact i nvr keep in touch on him ..one day i gave my number to him...he call me chat with me ..alot of his past ...even me also i told him for mine pass...and we both really like so close and close..each other.. from the phone he seen so True and mature...therefore me also would like to chat him...until 1 day me went to melaka and visit my godmother ...and we two did contact each other from call...start form the day..we bcome actual couple call ...and we nvr stop call each other even morning or night ..never stop...our relationship maintain for this 2month...within this 2 month we had plan to meet each other and go together to penang to c his parent...so i nvr k about that ..and told him...ok ..dear...i go with u...while u take leave time...ok...eventually i did told him also..dear..i'm fat le....but so pretty ya...would u mind that ar???he told me ..if i mind the gal fat or pretty or not..that not call true love...he did told me this many time and many time...and he did call me and let me know...dear...u must remember take food dont make yourself hungry...my heart will be pain d lo....start around june ..i already start mine n diet programm coz i need met him on JULY....and i start apply leave form...i will on leave 3day..

and i was getting approval as well..and i spend around 650 for bought on diet fibre TOTAL LIFE...and keep on excersice ..at home...seriously i getting slim...and i didnt take food..around 1 week i only take 5time food...see how serious am i??? i did all because of this guy.......

day and day was coming,....until that day..coming he will come over to mine home and fetch me go penang ..i remember his bday was on 21 July and i took my leave on 18JUly 2008...and i did preparing his present as well ...lighter for branded around price RM130 for 1 guy i nvr meet before...even me still think value or not.?? but i told myself...value......till dat day..he call me..while he alomost reach over KLANG...i teach him how to came over mine home....

then he really reach mine home...then i ask him while i go his car..c i nvr lie on u...i was NOT SLIM d...r u mine dat..then he told me..."dear ar....u c me handsome ma" u nvr 'Jie yi" me also...me so dark.why i must care u..le...so i put down mine heart,,,and dont so worry agaim...infact while i c him...i bit mind coz...he reallly different with pic..and reality...i abit mind on dat...but i told myself...since u alrdy bcome ppl gf...and said wan go penang for trip...so anything also muz reach penang only...said.....then i juz took my lagange and into his car..even the thing he ask me prepare itl...example...tower..brush...body shampoo etc...he also remind...dear ar..remember bring pillow lo...coz i wonder u need it...and mine car..dun hv lo..even b4 i go his car...i hv preparation...he might b k me fat..i won call him dea.r.on 1st...whose know..he was the first call me dear....then i only call him "dear".....sincerely he give me bad memory...even i can bcoz of did alot...i forever wont forget bad bad incident for me.......(Sometime net love really cant trust...) ..who can cure back mine broken heart.....

Memory me & him since 18oct07-jan07

2008-01-29T01:16:00.000-08:00

this pic jz a memory me and him ....we knew each other on online game -chinese version super dancer (SDO) since oct we knew each other ....we meet each other on 18-oct-07..and also we start our relation on dat day . On start he treat me very well..even my b'day 2nd dec07 he purpose came down from teregganu celebrate b'day with ....he make touch with even he was young than me 3 year old....dunno time being time our relation start have changes that is how we end our relationship. By rite a relationship need to communicate to solve out all d problem while hav matter happen,but duno the guy dunno how to solve d problem he try to escape while i try to discuss with him...maybe he not enuf mature...so i won blame him.....anyway very thankful him...bcoz he gave me such beautiful memory in my life................
we end up our relationship on january 18-01-08....

My's Recently life

2007-06-28T08:54:00.000-07:00

I juz change a new company and work as customer service at logistics company

the office quite near my house ,But i dunno am i happy at this office

for my job quite pressure coz everyday hv a lot of enquiry also must provide the detail to customer on time if not ,our head sure said alot....

other than that all my love relationship its no more already

all is finish......i am so hope i can get a actual fren and partner in life

even i can take care or he can take care me as well

Dunno when my fate is coming ??????

Now aday i always hang around cc .....

life so bored

All is late

2007-04-04T02:13:00.000-07:00

why human ,always wake while is late...i damn hate myself
coz i dunno wat is cherish before late..Now totally i'm wake
coz ..love cant force..here i can tell ..once u dump her/him,if u want
back relationship with her/him is really hard and impossible..
coz i am the one who do that...i knw he do have feeling on me
but dunno why he was wonder i am hurt him on second time..anyway..all is late..
now i need to is..let him go ..and wish him happy aalways...
macy..remember...PLs note...Dun do that again.....

"CHERISH BEFORE LATE"
THANKS HIM FOR GIVING ME THOSE MEMORY....

Boring days

2006-11-19T21:29:00.000-08:00

Now aday my life so boring and nothing to do,so painful while at free time,,my fren all thought me open minded gals ,dunno y they like push me push me thr ...i dunno something me do have feeling if ppl treat like a fool...maybe coz me too fat or digusting ppl never treat as real girl in life...Some time my concern there wont take in heart juz said no need ur concern etc....wat so ever life also need goes on
.i juz want release my bored at here.....dun miz understand .......Dunno my fren alwys wont remember while go out...there sure call me in last minute...So i sure will be answer i wont be out coz i dun want fren treat me on tat...therefore Nvm coz there are not really understanding macy in actual...her behaviour...so doent
matter...
Important i muz concern myself and love myself......Life very bored......

macy's bad bad day

2006-08-02T22:47:00.000-07:00

02.08.06-Wednesday my frieds came from kepong came to klang and do something
so i'm going fetch her and do her things and she is bring along her bf
she come by KTM and KTm last train is 11.00pm and she cant do her thing finish on that time so she is late and she need my help and ask me let her and her bf overnight 1 day ,sure i will say yes on that ,later on i back on 10.30pm and clear my room and take shower on time ,and also inform mum will bring fren overnight today
.The gal my mum knw as well who knw she hear bring extra 1 guy she is not so happy
and she told this story to my brother ,that time i take shower and my brother so rude kick my bathroom door till open that time i was naked coz take shower
he is too over and too rude ,somemore my parent all is help him
say u was false somemore want fight with brother
,if he kick the door sure i will anger and out some rude word and my brother somemore want heat me on the time and i naked the time so cant do anything also
but he was keeping kick the door till the separated 2 piece.
and the thing i cant believe this was 3rd time he wanna heat me if not my parent hold his hand and body he sure attack me till dead.and come my parent all help him
this make me sad and angry.Actually my mum is perpet guy more than gal.
I doent knw why my life lke that.....
and i dont knw how i want back home again
help me.........!!!!!!!
i am so dowm and sad nobody can understand my feeling currently

unDERstand the whole things

2006-07-09T17:43:00.000-07:00

I'm happy coz i knw the whole thing and very clear wat is my thinking ....
and also wat the truth ,hehe...on 09.07.06 (sunday) i went to see the fortune
and the people who c my was say all my thing very clear and all also happen at myself
so sometime fortune can be trusted ,REgarding the guy me also very clear on myself juz a missunderstanding between me with him ,aiya nice to chat with him on the night time and knw all the things ,he was drunk so with who also will be close ..
tat all by right nth special geh and also can knw wat is playing on mine thinking
hehe...me juz wrong judge my feeling by right haizzzzzzzzz...
but anywhere lucky no so fast tell anybody still can be cure la
me and him can be friends forever no more other than tat ...
tat's y quite happy lo
thanks for saturday night went for clubbing again
can say this weekend consider happy knw many thing
more fren thinking and have a nice relationship with them

Myself

2006-07-06T00:03:00.000-07:00

REgarding me.....by right macy just a normal girl
she need love ,ppl caring her that all
but she always sad...can say she always show smile on her face
she is unhappy but also smile coz she doesnt want ppl sad becoz of her
dont knw why ,she always knw get the bad experience on her
by right she juz open minded at communication by right inner nope
but she always let ppl missunderstanding her...haizzzzzzzzz
dont knw why????
she hope she can get a actual bf on her life but always dont success..
she also hope she can make her career success in life
she knw wat she want but everytime also no successful
maybe just a opporcunity...but no have the chance..
macy juz need to wait & wait....

one kisses

2006-07-05T21:35:00.000-07:00

i doesnt kwn wat is playing on my mind ? i can say i nt a simply gal like ply girl or ply ppl feeling
one july 2006 one saturday night my fren ask me out for clubbing ,by right i alrdy reject the date
but have one guy give me a call ,he's name xxxx xex ,and tat day i have a lot fun at the bar
and all the fren force me drink the chivas ,i have try nt drink but have sign ,tat sign is kissing
by right i nope accept tat sign but i have a bit of feel on tat guy ,somemore i alrdy drunk really drunk
so no point to choose drink ,at last we r kiss .tat's day i have kiss 2 guy is mouth to mouth
other's juz only face...coz i doent want let ppl think me is the gal who u easily to get.
dont knw y my feeling is so suffer and so miss the guy but i no dare tell him this feeling
i knw my qualification la ,coz i 'm short ,fat and ugly so i juz keep it as secret.....
jz a kiss make me so suffer........
haiz......................................next time i wont be kiss anymore if realy no so open minded......
can say this can be my foreverer secret.....coz i knw nobody will so bzbody open my blog and read it...